slacking

Slacking is never good because once you get behind is hard to catch back up

A old friend came along and swept me off my feet the other day.. he showed me how i should be treated but i just ran away.. am i broken.. do i not think i deserve what i really do.. i hurt this poor old friend.. and now in the end we are nothing.. ):
but hes all i think about.. what did i do to my self?? why would i do this..
my hearts to broken to be loved right now.. i just wish things were different bc hes perfect..

(thought to self)

(:
how you should be.

Today is a new day

Everyday is different, yesterday from today or today from tomorrow.
But each day you have to look at it as a fresh start..
Life throws curve balls at you somtimes and weather you dodge them or face them head on is up to you.. In thos curve balls are lessons. lesson you will eventually need to grow and become a better person.. just keep your head up and strive to be great.. and life will eventually get easier... just cant let things get you down and keep you down

Delilah Lynn cook(:

I'm so excited to announce that I'm having a beautiful little girl(: I can't wait to meet my delilah Lynn (: I love her SOOO much already I can't wait I hold her in my arms(:

1more day

Thursday I find out what I'm having im soooooo excited(:

Will power

Serious question for everyone.. 

How do you get will power for things and strive, When your soo depressed you can barley stand getting outta bed most days? I hate that I'm half temped to drop outta school.. Bc everyone around me is dragging me down... I'm really not this mean angry person I portay myself to be im just so depressed and need some good friends.. Yay for blog time

life yay! People honestly suck lol

Life throws  your curve balls sometime. and most the time you have to get hit by them to get up and become a stronger person.. Yeah life is hard.. but you gotta think someone out there has it worse off then you. Be grateful for the little things. and get up and do something in your life. because honestly if you don't there's no point to live.. life is shitty i get that.. but you gotta smile while your bleeding and keep moving forward.. bc no one will do it for you.. and most of the time if your friends are moving forward and your not they will honestly leave you in the dust. life is about you and your only or you and the family you created that's what your main focus should be and learning how to make your self happy and that family happy.. It sucks because some people dwell on the past soo much it doesn't only effect them it effects there family to.. and sometimes family has to move on with out.. and thats not fair

Commercial!!

Honestly I don't watch tv but I deffenetly remember writing about commercial in middle school.. About how there purpose is to usly sell somthing or grabs someone attention on a tv show. 

Techniques they use are usly somthing you can relate or somthing to catch your eyes. A lot are geared Towards certain kinda people like victory secret adds are manly geared toward women's they have these attractive women dancing around in victory secrets underware kinda putting it in the women's that if you buy you lingerie from there you'd be good looking like them. Honestly that's about all I know and just one example of a commercial.

Ever..

Ever Love someone so much it hurts?

It hurts Bc you don't know how that person truly feels.. 

The fear of being a single mom pokes at me everyday.. 

The fear of not being everything I need to be eats away at my soul.. 

Fear a huge thing and it's somthing that will hold you back.. 

But how do you get rid of it?

I honestly don't think you can..

The fear of not being able to finish school Bc your motivation goes down n down... 

And when you reach out your hand for help everyone just slaps your hand instead of grabbing it..

Depression sucks..

N I should just live for me and my baby.. But I wanna live for my family.. My family  that's not really even there..

Had my doc apt today

Soo the baby Is super healthy and all the blood work can back positive!!(: 

February 15 we getta find out what we are having(: I'll keep everyone up to par(: 

Yay baby!!!

My favorite food

 I have rice and shrimp in me. 

Most people down south eat me.

I also contain polish sausage And Chorizo. I tend to be a little spicy but oh sooo yummy. I am a cajun dish. Can you guess what I am??

Baby baby baby

July 5th I will be blessed by a new life, my own flesh and blood. I can't wait to meet my new child; (:

And in less then a month I get to find out what I'm having.(: I'm sooo super excited!